Its been four months with my injury. I will start by saying how thankful I am to have had such an amazing surgeon and physical therapist. I made great improvements in my two month of therapy, but now that is over. Both told me that the rest will just take time and no promises about anything.........
At this point I am a bit discouraged, I thought I would be able to do more than what I am. I still feel pain with every step I take, it isn't physically debilitating but emotionally it is draining. I can not lift on just my left foot, can't go up on my tip toes with just my left foot. I still can not wear anything but sneakers, and in the mornings when pain is the worst, I have to wear a sneaker or the pain is too much. I don't go super fast either. UGH, I just feel down. I expected to be so much further than what I am now.
BUT! I can crouch down on my toes (this was discovered just today), go up and down stairs with little difficulty, walk long distances, stand long times. Normal life is resumed. Well as much normal as it can be. The limp is almost completely gone which is great, things are still improving, just at a much slower pace now. There is more I can do then can't do which is something to be so thankful for!
I wish, hope, and pray, that I am able to run again. Oh how I loved running. It was what I did in college to help with the stress of school work and such. I took it for granted and made excuses for not running, oh how I wish I could take back those excuses. But looking back will not help me continue to move forward.
I am able to do the bike and I will be trying the elliptical soon. I can walk on the treadmill so I have to concentrate on what I can do.
I was told that improvement will begin to slow and it will take 8 to 12 months for complete recovery, and even then, I will always deal with residual pain and such. That scares me sometimes, espically now that progress is slowing. I wonder about having the two screws removed and if I will need another surgery in the future. I wonder just what I will and won't be able to do.....
I am proud of myself though.....I push through the pain....I keep going....I don't use it as an excuse...I just keep going. I have in the past just shut down...not this time. I have found a new strength in this injury, strength I didn't know I had inside. I use the pain to motivate, to be a better person, and to prove that I am strong and will deal with whatever challenge is placed in my way. It dosent mean I don't have bad days, I have had a few good cry sessions, but then I pick myself up and move forward.
I promised myself I would be a success story, and I am going to be!
