It has been six weeks since I have last walked, and I still have two weeks to go before I can start partial weight bearing. Then who knows how long until I can walk without some sort of assistance. Don't get me wrong, I know it could be worse, but I am ready for this to be over with.
The past few days have been more of an emotional struggle than a physical one. Physically I am doing great! My incisions are healing well, I have little to know pain, I am able to get around a bit easier as I have figured out how to move without the use of my left foot over the past six weeks, and my foot looks pretty normal. Its been emotionally more challenging recently. Other stories I have read online told me this would happen, and to be honest I have tried to fight it for awhile now, and my mind finally gave in last night.
I am frustrated, I am annoyed, I am angry this happened. I am tired of every task taking four times as long to complete, I am angry that I can't take a normal shower, I am tired of bruising from the crutches and leaning on the scooter. I am tired of not being able to be independent and having to ask and accept so much help. UGH! Its just not fun.
I am starting back to work this week, today was my first day back. I think that contributed to the frustration, but I will figure it out, somehow things always just work out. I will find out how to compensate, I am not a quitter!
I have wonderful family and friends, supportive and helpful co workers, I am fortunate to have a job, and I am blessed that I am healing well. There are more positives than negatives, I am so thankful for that.
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